walk away

When somebody you care about tells you to walk away from her
She doesn't mean it
Just that she needs to know
Does your heart knows her
As much as your brain.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

kalau saja

Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin lebih banyak hati yang bersatu.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin amarah akan terkendali.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin harapan akan selalu hidup.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin hati yang patah bisa terobati dalam sekejap.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin orang tidak mengucapkan salam perpisahan.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, mungkin mereka tidak akan menolak.
Kalau cinta saja cukup, aku akan ada di situ bersamamu.
Kalau saja cinta bisa cukup.
Kalau saja cinta bisa.
Kalau saja cinta.
Kalau saja.
           Kalau.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

mirage

You are my fatamorgana
My dream
My imagination

I keep myself away from you
To keep you still
Cause The moment i stepped in
The moment you'd gone

Yet my heart and eyes always
Follow where ever you go
Don't want to lose a single moment
just too precious

Like i'm the vagabond
In the desert, trapped for years
No way i'd know the way out
Nor when i'll leave

Looking at you gives me hope
A little happiness in me
Though no one knows will we end up together
Don't wanna fly my hope up too high
It crushes worse when it fall apart

Just knowing that you're there
And i can see whenever i'm willing
Is enough, isn't it?

You're my fatamorgana
My dreams
My imagination

It's all enough, isn't it?

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

again

There's no regret—
If we could turn back time, i'd fall for you over
and over again.
Say, honey, just promise me
Not that you wouldn’t leave
But for you’d always coming back

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

promise

This is the world where nobody’s perfect

Everyday they try to make a pact

But tomorrow it’s all jumped gone like a terrified bunny

Well guess what, honey

I’m not that kind of person, in fact

I may have failed tests

I sure have several flaws

But to you i could boldly promise:

You won’t find me stop loving you.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

sincerity

I love you.

No reasons needed

No conditions applied

No expired date

No feelings erased

I just love you.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

those old days

I miss the old days
when we laughed for something funny,
                             not to make fun of people,
when we cry for something breaks our heart,
                             not merely to get attention
and when we smile as we’re happy,
                                                    not to cover weeping tears.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

little pieces of words about l.o.v.e (1)

Sometimes, while i'm listening through a song, words just run around inside my head. Some are pretty, some are sad. Read by your heart when it's all full in the head. :)

For those with McDreamy they can't have...
To think about it this way
I am a pile of leaves
You're the wind of autumn
You blew me away
And broke me into pieces


A promise asked to a true love...
You can have all the first kisses and first love
Or even loves
Because all i'm asking is
Save the last one for me.


Faithful heart gets to pray some time...
I want a love to be kept
Not to waste
Or to play fire with fire
I don't need a love to be dreaming about
Or to be memorized
I just want a love i can really own
And feel its existence
Right in my heart.


Maybe it's why people gets lonely...
Loneliness called and i answered
now it wants to come over
And accompany me.


For those who feel like they've done enough by themselves...
The only one who can help my misery is me
The only one who can save me is myself
The only one i can count on is myself
And that's why the only one i'm desperately need is you
Because i've now getting tired of doing everything on my own


When people have no clue...
Everytime i look at you
It makes me wonder
If you love me too
And that's when life gets harder.


Nobody likes a wound in the heart...
Cold of winter will come and go
But the piece of ice in a lover's heart stays
where it first stabbed


When you truly love but still you can't have...
Kiss me goodbye from heaven above
Let me know our love is forever still
You're the one i'll always love
Though now you are not mine to will


What a love does...
A star. A moon. A sun.
A man on earth.
To shine. Lights up. Comforting.
There is love.


When people only see what they want to see...
I thought i was doing fine
But turns out i was just blind
When you were acting so kind
It blew my mind
I denied to see the sign
With bottles of wine
It's harder to realize the line
That my love is love in vain
And now nothing could stop the pain.


What love can pay...
I'll tell you the colours of music
The texture of wind
The sound of singing flowers
If you just let me taste the beauty of love

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

Seulas Pandangan Tentang Mimpi

Dari dulu saya tertarik dengan beberapa konsep. Salah satunya adalah konsep 'mimpi'. Lagu, quotes, puisi, atau apapun yang tentang mimpi biasanya pasti saya suka. Buat saya, mimpi adalah tujuan. Apapun yang saya impikan, akan saya usahakan untuk terjadi. Bukan sembarang mimpi di siang bolong atau kebanyakan jadi daydreamer. Walaupun kadang lamunan juga asyik ya?

Anyway, kalau boleh memotong kata Cinderella, a dream is a wish your heart makes.
Kita yang membangun mimpi-mimpi kita. Kita yang akan menjalaninya ketika nanti terjadi. Jadi kenapa tidak bersusah payah mencapainya?

Tapi yaa, ngomong aja sih memang gampang. Tidak semua mimpi ditakdirkan untuk tercapai, seperti halnya tidak semua hal akan kita lihat. Banyak mimpi-mimpi yang juga kandas di tengah jalan, mati sebelum mencapai akhirnya. Mimpi-mimpi yang tidak sempat jadi nyata karena satu dan banyak hal yang menghalanginya. Dan banyaknya hati yang patah.

Jadi ingat salah satu lagu dengan lirik yang paling sedih, tapi juga menancap kata-katanya. Lagu Dream I Dreamed dari opera Les Miserables selalu bisa bikin hati jadi termangu. Belum lagi iramanya yang bikin merinding. Kalau lagi putus asa terus dengar lagu ini, waaah. Jauhkan silet dari pandangan dan siapkan tisu banyak-banyak (nggak santai).

Hm tapi kalau dipikir-pikir, mimpi yang tidak terjadi tidak perlu disimpan lama-lama. Buat apa juga menyimpan sampah di dalam rumah selama berwaktu-waktu? Cuma bikin aroma tidak sedap dan pemandangan buruk. Buang yang lama, tempatkan yang baru. Lebih sehat, lebih senang. Amiinn. :)

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

Kita?

Kita adalah sekelompok orang yang pandai menyembunyikan perasaan
Bermain dengan kata-kata
Dan dalam alunan nada tersirat
Kita mengubah benci menjadi cinta
Serta cinta menjadi nista
Lalu tertawa
Saat hati sebenarnya terusik fakta
Sayang, ketika itulah kita senyum paling cemerlang

Kita adalah sekelompok orang yang pandai menutupi emosi
Pikiran dan percakapan bergulir layaknya dadu di tangan penjudi
Tak terlihat apakah tulus apakah dusta
Tawa kita membahana
Kita berpaling dari cinta
Menggeleng pada pertanyaan dengan hati
Sapuan senyum memperdaya si penanya
Hilanglah semua kesempatan ungkapan rasa
Namun dalam hati tetap tidak pasti
Mencerna sesal ataukah lega.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

when i got insomnia, i wrote this.

I always believe the power of mind.
Dalam segala sesuatunya, apapun yang kita kerjakan, apapun yang kita rasakan, semuanya bersumber dan berakhir pada pikiran. pikiran kita sendiri, tempat di mana cuma kita pribadi yang punya aksesnya. Selama tubuh tidak mengkhianati, kita bisa berpikir tentang apa saja tanpa orang lain tahu. Seperti punya dunia sendiri yang bebas dari pengaruh orang lain.

Tapi ini bisa jadi senjata, bisa jadi bom bunuh diri.

Biasanya saya selalu mencoba untuk berpikir positif.
"Orang itu galak karena harinya jelek."
"Dia tidak bermaksud begitu, cuma salah sangka."
"Ah, pasti ada alasan bagus dia berbuat seperti itu."
dan seterusnya, dan lain hal semacamnya.

Atau di saat-saat sulit, yang bisa menguatkan diri adalah saya sendiri. Semua motivasi dan kemauan yang saya miliki datang dari saya sendiri. Kalau malas atau putus asa, harus ada secuil di pikiran saya yang tidak malas atau tidak putus asa, supaya saya bisa kembali. Kalau tidak, habislah.
Karena sayalah orang yang saya dengarkan. Ketika orang lain yang berbicara dan pikiran saya menolak, selamat tinggal.Sifat keras kepala ini kemudian berujung pada gengsi. Kata teman-teman, dan kadang saya sendiri, gengsi saya tingginyaaa naujubilah.
mau minta maaf, gengsi.
berbuat salah, gengsi.
mau minta tolong, gengsi.
Capek yaa. Sekali lagi, ini bisa jadi senjata, bisa jadi bom bunuh diri. Untung sampai sekarang saya masih bisa terus menodong senjata, bukannya merakit bom. kiasan, kiasan.

Saya juga sudah terbiasa untuk melakukan semuanya sendiri. Some may say it's independent. Others find it's exhausting. But to me, that's the way i roll. Melihat orang lain yang tergantung pada orang lain lagi bikin gemas dan tidak sabar. Mau marah tapi pikiran otomatis positif, "Memang orangnya begitu, tidak semua bisa melakukan semuanya sendiri." Bagus juga sih, biarpun kadang jadi tidak konsisten.
Dulu malah lebih parah, tidak percaya kerjaan orang. kalau kerja kelompok dan sistemnya bagi tugas, harus dicek dulu. Apakah saya puas atau tidak dengan bagian orang lain. Padahal pendapat saya juga belum tentu benar. Untung sekarang sudah tidak (terlalu) lagi. Sejak kuliah di psikologi, itu terlaluuu melelahkan. Bukannya rawat jalan, bisa jadi malah terkena gangguan.

Now, I'm still working with this "myself" thing. Terlalu banyak "saya" dalam pikiran. bahkan dalam tulisan ini pun, dimana-mana bertebaran kata-kata "saya". Mungkin ini pesan dari alam bawah sadar. (Maklum anak psikologi, yang terlintas pun tentang unconsciousness-nya Freud.) Harus lebih mendengarkan dan mempertimbangkan orang lain. No matter how difficult that is, because it might be better. And better is nice, It's one step closer to the best. :))

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

some perspectives and if if if.

What do we need to stop arguing about differences?
Throw every people to giant pool of melted chocolate, i say.
Everybody would seemed exactly the same
Dark and sweet
They'll learn not too judge others by looks.

***

Where have you been, little bird? Seemed so happy as you never been,
Said the little flower.
To see what my future holds after me,
Answers little black bird gladly.
But what's so wonderful about it?
Gasped the little violet.
For no surprise you'd have for the rest of your life.
Like peeking every presents before given to you.

***

Kalau hal-hal yang kita percayai saja belum tentu terjadi, bagaimana dengan mimpi-mimpi indah namun tidak kita yakini sepenuh hati?

***

Kalau di mata Tuhan saja kedudukan semua orang adalah sama, kenapa di mata kita harus berbeda?

***

Kalau orang-orang hanya melihat apa yang ingin mereka lihat, hanya mendengar apa yang ingin mereka dengar, dan hanya merasakan apa yang ingin mereka rasakan, lalu siapa yang akan berani menghadapi kenyataan dengan segala baik buruknya?

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

random random quotes

I don't need you to promise me that you will never leave. I need you to promise me that you will always come back.
***

-Says who we're meant to be together?
-Says me.
-Great. I know you're smart.
***

-You told me i am smart, i am pretty, i am kind.
-And you're mad because...?
-Well, tell me something i didn't know!
***

Is love ever enough?
***

I'd like to meet someone, not the one that never tell pick up lines, but the one that tells and means every word there is.
***

I won't speak, you wouldn't listen. Aren't we perfect for each other?
***

Please, don't give me anymore promises. Just give me one reason. One reason to not walk out that door, one reason to not hate you for whatever you have done to me, to still love you the way i did. Because
it is damn hard to get over you, and i don't think i'll be able to do that with a broken heart. And as a matter of fact, i hope i could still love you for the rest of our life. Together.
***

Pray for what you want,
Work for what you need.
***

So many people trying to be thin
But what we always need actually is
Somebody to be the bigger person.
***

None of us can tell how many stars are there in the sky,
But we can always imagine what would life be without them
***

To be a hero is to have enough courage to step up and enough dignity to walks out at the right times.
***

To live is to have a life you are proud of.
***

Sometimes it blows, somedays we've been ditched
Some moments are sucks, some years go on without meaning
But other times we succeed, other days friends are all we have
Other moments we gladly have, and we seize other years of life.
Everytime, it is all about perspective.
***

Victory comes to those who cares enough to try achieving it.
***

Your life isn't yours untill you are ready to take over responsibilities.
***

Under the sunny sky there is always people with umbrella
***

You don't have to be the best everyone could hope for. You just need to be the best you can.
***

Happiness is not somehing you achieve. It's something you think you do.
***

Show them some dignity and they will show you some respect.
***

If everyone popped the questions in their heads, the world will explode
***

Curiosity kills the lovers.
***

Let me spin the bottle and see who's i'm gonna love next.
***

One bad thing about excelent movies is good little things are not ours to believe in.
***

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.

ternyata.

ternyata,
tidak semua orang tahu apa yang mereka rasakan sebenarnya.
ternyata,
ada hal-hal yang tidak disangka yang bisa meruntuhkan dunia seseorang.
ternyata,
banyak ketakutan-ketakutan yang tak beralasan.
ternyata,
orang bisa menangis tanpa sebab yang jelas.
ternyata,
aku merasakan lebih dari kukira.
dan ternyata,
it hurts.

when you learn how to dream, make sure you also learn how to live in reality.